Post by JoJo on Oct 13, 2017 15:54:16 GMT
Everyone else is using aliases nowadays it seems, so I’ll join the party. One thing that has remained consistent for me is using male names that can also be female. I think I made a pretty good choice as I’ve picked the biggest asshole in anime, which pretty much describes me. Surprised to see no more DeHeftys left, then again, probably for the best. Anyways, I think it’ll be pretty obvious who I am, but please don’t use any of my old names unless you’re PM’ing me.
I guess it’s been 2.5-3 years now; lurked for years, joined around 2009/10, left screaming and cursing everyone out. Good times. Happened to just be thinking back about things and wanted to see whatever happened to the permanent construction and to my surprise the sites back up. Which I’m glad. I just wanna say I regret what I did. And I feel bad. There was a lot that most people don’t know about that went on behind the scenes as well as things that were going on irl, and instead of being a mature adult about stuff, I bottled everything up until I exploded. Thus, almost deleting the site as well as cutting off contact from everyone and other things. I don’t need to go into a detailed retelling as Sokimon already posted it once before (though, I think a couple things happened in a different order, but who knows, my memory could be wrong).
There was also another problem a lot of people were unaware of, which was letting a member back into the community (not dft as this member was perma-banned, but the other sites), after said user sent pretty nasty threats regarding me, but nobody really cared about it because it was years ago and I no longer had the chatlogs proving it. And this further lead to my anger and frustration towards people and another reason I left. Honestly, its why I dropped off the other sites initially and was only using DFT towards the end of my time in the community.
I really did care about the site and the community. And my intention with everything was trying to do something nice for the community, but people gave me shit and attacked me for it and I took it too personally. Because the thing is, I really did care about the community and everyone, even if I did seem like a bitch at points. And it just really hurt when people I considered friends attacked me calling me things like “power hungry” when I really just wanted to get rid of my admin title and go back to being a normal member.
The reason I was going to delete DFT was because I felt no one appreciated the time and work I put into the site, and at the time I was the only active admin as the other two were busy with life and Sokimon had computer issues. So, I felt like I was the one who owned and ran the site because the other two were doing nothing (which was not the case). Which is totally not how things are supposed to work, but I was being a selfish asshole at the time. I ended up being like, “If nobody likes the work I put in, I’m taking it with me when I go.” The one admin talked me out of it while Sokimon changed everything so I could no longer have access to anything. And then I left, but not before cursing people out, deleting group chats, etc, because I wanted to go out with a bang and be the biggest bitch and make sure nobody ever tried to talk to me again. And so here I am now, just saying sorry for being an asshole. Because that’s what I was. I shouldn’t have taken things so personally or attempted to destroy part of the community. But I’m glad Sokimon saved the site and has relaunched since. It’s good to still see it surviving after all these years.
I’m not really interested in this stuff anymore though. I wasn’t really even that into it towards the end of my time in the community. It was more of an escapism thing and just being around people I liked. I’ve moved on in life and I’m in grad school now so not really as much time to do this silly stuff anymore. I really do miss hanging with some of you though, and we had some good times, especially chatzy and skype.
I just wanted to come back at least one more time and just apologize for my actions and for being an asshole.
Also while I’m at it, I trolled a couple of the smaller sites back in the day using the name shadowcat with the name Kitty. Somehow nobody caught on though even though I was clearly RPing as Kitty Pryde? I wasn’t the only person in the community doing this, but it was still a pretty assholish thing to do on my part, especially since I was admin of DFT. So, I’m sorry for that as well.
Anyways, I don’t plan to be very active. Planned to stop by and apologize and then reply to posts on this or any PMs I got. If you wanna stay in contact, shoot me a pm and include your old name so I know who you are and I’ll give you my tumblr, discord, steam, etc.
-Joe Kid out
I guess it’s been 2.5-3 years now; lurked for years, joined around 2009/10, left screaming and cursing everyone out. Good times. Happened to just be thinking back about things and wanted to see whatever happened to the permanent construction and to my surprise the sites back up. Which I’m glad. I just wanna say I regret what I did. And I feel bad. There was a lot that most people don’t know about that went on behind the scenes as well as things that were going on irl, and instead of being a mature adult about stuff, I bottled everything up until I exploded. Thus, almost deleting the site as well as cutting off contact from everyone and other things. I don’t need to go into a detailed retelling as Sokimon already posted it once before (though, I think a couple things happened in a different order, but who knows, my memory could be wrong).
There was also another problem a lot of people were unaware of, which was letting a member back into the community (not dft as this member was perma-banned, but the other sites), after said user sent pretty nasty threats regarding me, but nobody really cared about it because it was years ago and I no longer had the chatlogs proving it. And this further lead to my anger and frustration towards people and another reason I left. Honestly, its why I dropped off the other sites initially and was only using DFT towards the end of my time in the community.
I really did care about the site and the community. And my intention with everything was trying to do something nice for the community, but people gave me shit and attacked me for it and I took it too personally. Because the thing is, I really did care about the community and everyone, even if I did seem like a bitch at points. And it just really hurt when people I considered friends attacked me calling me things like “power hungry” when I really just wanted to get rid of my admin title and go back to being a normal member.
The reason I was going to delete DFT was because I felt no one appreciated the time and work I put into the site, and at the time I was the only active admin as the other two were busy with life and Sokimon had computer issues. So, I felt like I was the one who owned and ran the site because the other two were doing nothing (which was not the case). Which is totally not how things are supposed to work, but I was being a selfish asshole at the time. I ended up being like, “If nobody likes the work I put in, I’m taking it with me when I go.” The one admin talked me out of it while Sokimon changed everything so I could no longer have access to anything. And then I left, but not before cursing people out, deleting group chats, etc, because I wanted to go out with a bang and be the biggest bitch and make sure nobody ever tried to talk to me again. And so here I am now, just saying sorry for being an asshole. Because that’s what I was. I shouldn’t have taken things so personally or attempted to destroy part of the community. But I’m glad Sokimon saved the site and has relaunched since. It’s good to still see it surviving after all these years.
I’m not really interested in this stuff anymore though. I wasn’t really even that into it towards the end of my time in the community. It was more of an escapism thing and just being around people I liked. I’ve moved on in life and I’m in grad school now so not really as much time to do this silly stuff anymore. I really do miss hanging with some of you though, and we had some good times, especially chatzy and skype.
I just wanted to come back at least one more time and just apologize for my actions and for being an asshole.
Also while I’m at it, I trolled a couple of the smaller sites back in the day using the name shadowcat with the name Kitty. Somehow nobody caught on though even though I was clearly RPing as Kitty Pryde? I wasn’t the only person in the community doing this, but it was still a pretty assholish thing to do on my part, especially since I was admin of DFT. So, I’m sorry for that as well.
Anyways, I don’t plan to be very active. Planned to stop by and apologize and then reply to posts on this or any PMs I got. If you wanna stay in contact, shoot me a pm and include your old name so I know who you are and I’ll give you my tumblr, discord, steam, etc.
-Joe Kid out
